Double face love.

Photo by Frederik Heyman

Recent conversation with couple of my friends on trust and relationships got me thinking. Is love really double-faced? How many of us love with fingers crossed in our pockets? How many people is in relationship with one person with a number of B options just a click away in his/hers cell-phone, notebook, Facebook, Twitter or WhatsApp? So when the tough gets going in a relationship you are CLICK gone…and CLICK goes the next one…

I wrote about love and trust in a number of ways in couple of different posts, going through various stages in life. It was quite interesting for me to learn how my own views changed with experience, as I guess there is no other way to learn this lesson but on my own skin.

Here are the couple of posts I wrote on this topic…

Emotional switch

Masks off

Wake up call

Trust

Still, going through my current life stage and relationship I find myself going foolishly and naively all out on a daily basics trying to be positive, loving and thinking that the other person will equally openly and honestly feel and act towards me, with no fingers crossed with no B options CLICK away…does he, do they really do the same?

What should one do when in doubt? Confront for every little thing? Ask rather than assume? Listen to that women instinct or let it go?

When I look back and remember myself when I was a little girl observing my parents well functioning marriage…wearing crown on my head and princess outfit on a daily basis, acting and moving like a confident princess trusting each person from the first day we met – I almost feel guilty telling that same girl with same morals just a bit older now, to be careful, wiser, to step back and act unlike her character in order not to get hurt.

When did double face love got in fashion?

Love is not a game.

We both knew it would be impossible or hard, 

but we managed to loose our guard.

Every day together feels like a gift, 

we are happy and our minds often drift.

We forget about what reality brings,

 and our dreams yet again grow bigger wings.

With you time goes by so fast,

You make me happy, sadness is a matter of the past.

You repeat the same jokes, sometimes they are stupid,

I still laugh, guess I got hit by a cupid.

Meat or pasta, you really like my cooking,

above all you like the way I'm looking.

We talk for hours, its our favorite thing,

it triggered a warning , this thing is not just another fling.

I really enjoy listening to you speak,

you are so strong, and have a great physique.

The most important is that I feel protected, 

cared about and always well respected.

But than again reality comes knocking, 

love is not a GAME, 

with heartbreak there is no joking.

Ever since the day we met,

 I really feel safe and emotionally SET,

No matter what happends next,

 I wanna be your friend, there will be no regrets.

Just please don't play a truth or dare,

you know I have feelings for you, you know that I care.

Love is sometimes passionate and cruel, 

for some its a suffer, for some its a jewel.

There is no cheating, no bluff allowed, 

everyone finds their MATCH, the rule saids: speak the truth and stay proud.

But than again, love is a matter of heart,

cupid threw his erow, it shows love where to start.

H.N.S.