Saturday night fever!

Long sleave dress and red belt by Lei.Lou (Alex Dojčinović)

"Live life fully while you’re here. 

Experience everything. 

Take care of yourself and your friends. 

Have fun, be crazy, be weird. 

Go out and screw up! 

You’re going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process. 

Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes: find the cause of your problem and eliminate it. 

Don’t try to be perfect; just be an excellent example of being human."

~Anthony Robbins~

To my girls.

Although we are oceans apart, 

I think about you all quit a lot. 

I often remember things we used to do 

And all the issues we managed to pull through. 

We were the best, we were the worst, sometimes the last and sometimes the first. 

Whenever I am fixing my make up before I work out,

 I can almost see Kacy smiling and Kelli calling me out. 

Whenever I feel down and my emotions swirl,

 I hear Erin screaming: "You go and get them girl!" 

I never dare to give up on my dreams and my work, 

Cause I remember Alis playing in pain without a smirk. 

My every morning coffee reminds me on my partner in crime, 

My fabulous GF! We were inseperable all of the time! 

T.T., Brandy and Shay - team OOCD! 

Where these three were - party was a guarantee! 

When I turn on the MTV, first thought is Mellsy - the dancing queen! 

Every practice with her went by faster - because she got that MJ gene! 

Armina is the one I call every time I am down, 

When it comes to real life urgant help - she is wearing a crown. 

We grew up together; This game gave us a chance, 

it tought us the steps - for the Real Life dance. 

You were my sisters, mothers ad my mirror image, 

We helped each other grow; having you in my life is a true privilege. 

We started as lady tigers, today we are a lion queens, 

Scoring in real life and leading big business teams 

so we had to pass the ball to some other tiger teens.

Who is your pillar?

Today I started thinking about pillars, about my pillars. So I asked Google to ask Webster how to define a pillar. Webster defined pillar as:
1pil·lar
Pronunciation:
\pi-ler\
Function:
noun
1 a: a firm upright support for a superstructure : post b: a usually ornamental column or shaft ; especially : one standing alone for a monument
2 a: a supporting, integral, or upstanding member or part
3: a solid mass of coal, rock, or ore left standing to support a mine roof4: a body part that resembles a column

Okey…So having Webster confirm my theory I started to think of who/what is my pillar, my post, my column, my leader, my support, my base, my tower of strength…who or what is my rock?!

Once we are born we need a lot of nurture but not as much support, in our childhood we grow and develop on one firm, safe and solid pillar of our family. As we grow that pillar is not sufficient, our knowledge, curiosity and ambitions are growing as are we, this is when standing on only one (although strong and basic) pillar becomes insufficient, unstable and it limits the growth of our potential. This is when we self grow an additional pillar - we build friendships. This pillar is getting taller and stronger, with years it chips away one bit and grows by a two, but it mostly measures continuous growth.
Ok. So here we are, standing on the two strong pillars, balanced and steady, tall and strong. Next, we learn and grow more, we get wider and wider, want to keep growing and explore the life further. Slowly, we are stretching a bit much, our appetite and our needs grow, we become more confident and ambitiously wanting to grow a whole new unfamiliar pillar from the scratch.
Sometimes this means we are jeopardizing or just shaking up our two base posts, but we are adamant to do it and we try. It is scary, unfamiliar and new but we risk it and start building it.
We make a choice of a material we build it from, on its height and its position in regards to our base. But once we start building it we can’t stop until we finish it, because as we started to build it we have moved our core - our equilibrium, and we are not going to be balanced until it is finished. Each of us has to make one from the scratch sooner or later; the only difference is in the amount of the risk and the speed one is willing to take while building it.
There is one more pillar we build out of ambition, social expectations and necessity, this pillar is our work, career, our status…it is our desire to prove oneself in a certain discipline, prove oneself to society and to ourselves. This pillar is really just a mean to maintain a steady pace while building a whole new one, it is made of sand, we build it up much easier and faster than any other but it is also most fragile, even a breeze can blow it away, not to mention the earthquake!
…the one we build all by ourselves, from the scratch is always high risk and requires a whole lot of investment and promises nothing and gives everything- this is the pillar of love, relationship and later family…the pillar which you must build sooner or later…..its quality and endurance depends on a person you are building it with, material you are using and care you are maintaining it with. This is the pillar which will replace your base- the pillar of your family, once it naturally fades away.
Did you build your pillar? Or did you start building it, got scared, stopped and only thing you have left is the pillar made of sand? If this is the case, my dear you are a sinking Venezia.

~Kat

Friendships

Weather Report: pleasantly warm
Stock Market Report: L.O.V.E hit its 52week high= priceless
Emotional State: worried but hopeful


First and foremost I would like to thank Kim and Anita for their endless wisdom, love and support in the past week. No, this is not acceptance speech on movie or music awards. These are honest and truthful words of gratitude to my friends who each on her own unique way helped me see the both sides of my Time, Love and Lifelong investment dilemma. They helped me see what was really important by applying their knowing of me and they care for me as the real friends should. So thank you girls for being you, reminding me who I am and encouraging me to stay true to the same.



Now, this made me think about what friendships really are, since in the past two months I have really questioned the longevity and quality of some of my friendships. As I see it, the friendship is a relationship just like a romantic one, well minus the physical part and just like the family relationship, again minus the actual blood connection. The common ingredient as you might noticed and felt is LOVE .



Different than romantic relationship, friendship should be unconditional in love and have much higher bullshit and PMS tolerance. Also, friendship should be more forgiving and absolutely unselfish. Next, friendship versus family relationship has a spare bad and a shoulder to cry on for you even when families bullshit tolerance is on the all times low and romantic relationship has proven to be a mistake.



And the last but by all means not the least is that friendship is never silent, it tells you what you need to hear even when you don't want to hear it. It catches when falling, it falls and knows it will be caught, it makes a mistake and forgives one, it fights and makes up and it never ever lets go.



So thank you again fabulous ladies. Thank you Armina and Matea on "big sister" friendship. Thank you Ania on "little sister" friendship. Thank you Allis on listening friendship, thank you Erin on wisdom and experience talk, thank you GF on partner in crime friendship. Thank you Anita on blunt honesty and endless support. And thank you Mr. Financial Analyst for helping the L.O.V.E hit its 52 weeks high.